Angels & Progress

MANY HAVE ASKED me how I am, so I thought I'd better update my progress on the blog.

Tonight marks the 31st night since my fall on Aug 12th. Been a month! I have been out of the hospital for 19 days now (12 days in hospital). For those who need a recap, I lost my balance on my Jaguh on MRR2 at 8.12 pm. No other vehicles were involved. Eventually, the bike landed on my right thigh and broke the femur bone into 2. Straight to the point, ouch! (To be continued on "Scene of Mishap" below)

I am now mostly on crutches for short distances and a wheelchair for longer ones. Yeah, I do get pushed around a lot these days! But no lah... I am shown much love and care. Angels around me. Much are the tear-drawing-type kinda care and love-in-action! *wink*

I would be kidding if I had not been frustrated at times throughout this recovery period. The nights and sleeps are painful most times... with constant pricking and screwing at my inner bones and nerves. In the early stages I couldn't even rotate to the side to sleep. After a week, I used a soft pillow in between the legs to rotate gently to the left but not to the right for my operation was that side - running from my waist down to the side of my knee in 5 lines totalling 18.25 inches.


(Nice to be pushed around, even got to go to Ikea, watched Ratatouille and celebrated Birthdays. Many angels involved)

I had stayed off pain killers for the last 2.5 weeks for I believe they wouldn't help me in the long run. With the pain, I just have to unite that with my faith, as a sort of atonement. When I am able to align that, I do feel much grace and peace. The little sufferings I feel are but only a fraction of the much greater pain others feel - be it in physical or emotional pain.

My next appointment with the doctor is Thurs, 20th Aug with new X-rays taken. There I will find out more about my progress. In cases like mine, I would usually have to stay off my injured leg for 3 months. It takes 6-8 weeks for the fractured bones to merge, though in its less-solid stage. If nerves are involved, it can go up to 6 months because nerves only grow an inch each month! Thank God my spine is ok but my groin nerves have been affected. To me its not a problem, really!

As far as work is concerned, I am kinda worried. This year may end up as my poorest earning year since 1990. I lost a TV ad job, a teaching job, a facilitating project, a movie role (never been in a movie), jobs with 8TV (not asked for OIAM2), desktop publishing for NGOs and so on. I may be wheelchair/crutches bound, I am determined to get out and work again.

(Sept 2nd. Celebrated my Chinese Birthday at a Porridge Steamboat Restaurant)

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Bought an ankle band yesterday... so that this will not happen to my foot again! Water retention when I am away from the bed for too long. Foot looks like it belongs to a 200 pounder guy! Eeeww.

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SCENE OF MISHAP:

THE HEAVY BIKE dropped on its side and according to the driver behind, he saw sparks flew from the drag. The almost full tank (RM20 worth) sat only cms from my balls. No kidding. If I had worn boxers, the jewels would have been crushed!!!

As you can see from the pics taken at the scene (refer to Mishap entry), I was really that normal and calm looking. I HAD to stay collected for who knows, I may have gone into shock and fainted. I managed to drag myself into the middle of the highway but as I arrived there after a short 3 metres, I soon realised that something was wrong with my legs. My right leg didn't behave right for I could not lift nor control it. I yanked the rain pants upwards like a puppeteer would for a limb to move.

Mind you, I had extra padding in the form of rain pants and rain boots over my usual clothing and sport shoes. I also had on a thick leather jacket which saw minor abrasions. All in all, they may have prevented complete bone crushes and other agonising fractures to my limbs! Angels protected me I know! Wish I can play the song ANGEL by Sarah McLachlan right here! *chuckles*

Thank you Angels, my Guardian Angel and St. Michael my Protector!

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ANGEL - Sarah McLachlan

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

* in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees *


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